As I was thinking about the Green Comet in the 50,000-year orbit around our Solar system. That we’ll be able to see in the sky by February 1st & 2nd 2023. (Last seen by Earth peoples in the Stone Age.) I recalled an old memory, of how I stumbled onto the phenomenon of Astral Travel and Projection.
When I was somewhere between 6 & 7 years old, I watched Disney’s Pinnochio nearly every night before bed. I wanted so badly for wishes to be a reality and for them to come true. So every night I’d look for the Brightest Star in the Night Sky. and I’d resight
“Star Light, Star Bright, First Star I See Tonight, I Wish I May, I Wish I Might, Have The Wish I Make Tonight.”
and I’d look at the moon, and wish I could live there, far away from everyone & watch over the cosmos. I’d go to my poster of the moon, featuring many photographs of the surface of the moon. I’d try and sleep, but for hours I’d lay still memorizing the moon. and I’d find myself there somehow… I became obsessed with this phenomenon and used it as a vehicle of escapism. I visited all the planets in the Solar System. and on Saturn’s rings, I found a gateway to other worlds… that is where I met my first Familiars. I used this phenomenon to explore the deep sea and other countries. I met people this way in the Astral Plane. Both local and international. I met other kids too, and we’d meet either at the library or in the park to verify that the Astral journey was real. We then began to experiment with Shared-Dreams and Visitations. We kept pushing the experiments to see what other things we could achieve through the phenomenon.
If we could visit each other’s dreams, perhaps we could also read each other’s minds. We discovered that it can be achieved but it mostly occurred on accident. when we tried to read each others minds it didn’t work. but when we allowed ourselves to be lost in thought we’d hear each other speaking even when no one has said anything. Eventually, we’d respond to questions we didn’t realize we had asked each other. Because we thought the questions and responded to the perception of each other’s thoughts. In a sense, we bonded in such a way that we became like one mind. We finished each other’s thoughts and sentences; sort of how twins tend to do. Psychic development started very early for me. I had already been able to see and hear spirits and entities. something that caused me much distress when I was alone as a kid, which was always. Creatures peeking out from the corners of rooms, or from black spots, or from the outline of trees or 3D spaces. and constantly hearing them whispering at me. calling my name in echos from beyond the forest hills. Birds calling out my name in the shadows at night. as demons attempt to climb in from my window, and onto my bed. The Christians who raised me always said that because I was the firstborn, the devil will always try to claim me.
THE WATCHERS:
As we explored the Astral plane, we saw that there were “Watchers” there. Spiritual masters who patrolled the Astral Plane. and I remember them being so impressed that we kids were so gifted in the art of Astral travel. They’d follow us around, and visit us in dreams. They’d visit us in the skys outside of our schools. Knowing that we’d step out of our bodies to escape from reality. They were guarding us, protecting us. By the age of 9 some of these watchers began to invite us to astral meetings. It was there that these Watchers revealed themselves to be Living Vampyres from the Gotham Halo. Prior to that I had never identified as human, I always felt trapped in a human form. and felt a constant longing to return Home, though I didn’t know where home was. It just wasn’t here on earth. I always felt myself too primal and animalistic to be human. and most worrisome to me, were the sorts of things I’d fantasize about.
Needless to say these watchers took a special interest in me and Identified me as one of them. For a while they’d meet with me and invite me to these Astral meetings, and they’d teach me and give me instructions on how to do certain things like “Shielding” — “Deflecting” — “Absorbing” & “Transmuting Energy”. But also they taught me how to build a Ritual Chamber and showed me its purpose. This is when I started Sleeping in my closet or under my bed blindfolded. They instructed me on how to perform certain Ritual Meditations such as the “Throning Rite” where I was to gaze deeply into the eyes of my reflection & transport myself into the place beyond them. This is how we can project our spirits into the mind of others and touch or move their souls.
By the time I was 14 or 15, I experimented by gazing through a candle flame into the spheres (eyes), and thus discovered the secret of astral shapeshifting. This then inspired me to experiment with other elements, which lead to my discovery of Elemental Magick.
Then I learned how to create Servitors, Tulpa’s, and Astral Palaces. But this was all after they abandoned me.
Something had to have happened by the year 1999, that the Vamps stopped allowing me to join the Astral meetings. They told me, that as soon as I am old enough to come to New York on my own, I should come and find them. But by the time I finally arrived on the scene, The Vampyre community was starting to split. There was soooo much drama, and a battle for power & influence. But I was Glad that as soon as I walked into Lucky Cheng’s for the Paradise Lost Vampyre event… That among my friends, I was the one they spotted and called Vampyre. I was finally among my people. But unfortunately the Vampyres I interacted with on the astral Plane were nowhere to be found.
I tend to jump around on the details and timeline when I talk about that period of my life. But it was through these Watchers that I learned that other Living Vampyres existed. I had an awakening at age 7 when I was being targeted by spiritual attacks, poltergeist activity, and spiritual possession. I was constantly drained and faint. then I was paralyzed by a heavy fever, and my family was having a party with guests in the apartment outside the room. and my door was shut the window was open, and I was parazylzed in bed. I heard the Birds calling my name from the forest hills behind my building outside my window. and me stricken with the worst fear. A demonic entity crawled into my room from the window, it was black. and it was creeping onto my bed. Thats when the spirits of 4 ancestors arrived screaming “Don’t Let The Demon Get you.”
and then the Demon climbed onto my bed, and expanded itself above me preparing to devour me, or attempt to possess me or something. Then I heard the Ancestors chant “DEVOUR THE DEMON, DEVOUR THE DEMON, DEVOUR THE DEMON.”
And suddenly my Heart and Solar-plex Chakra’s began turning like vortexes. And a Bright light emerged from that space between the two. and I saw the Demons eyes open wide with terror, and it jumped back with fright and tried to flee, but the Vortex grew and became like a cosmic vacuum. It sucked the demon into it. and it shut and I felt energized and my fever was miraculously GONE! The Ancestors called me the Souleater, and they gave me a blessing before departing. That was the moment I realized there was something very different about me on a very spiritual level. and other people could feel it.
After that moment I stopped getting sick.
I’ve had many Shamanic experiences like these in my life. and it has shaped the way I initiate members of my coven into the mystic arts or Vampyrism. I never expect others to have the same experiences I had. But I teach them the secrets I’ve learned from my life of exploring the terrain of the mystic waters.
I did not intend to go this far into this story. I intended to stop at traveling the moon, the cosmos, the deep sea, and past lives. But the more I searched the memory more was recalled. Everything starts somewhere and leads someplace else. Astrologers take one look at my chart and laugh saying “You had no chance of living a life where you didn’t become an Occultist.”
The Misanthropic Vampire 